Greetings and Salutations

It has been three weeks since I have been to work. I have lost track of what day it is and my sleep schedule is a mess. Normally I would get sleepy around midnight and fall asleep around 1am, but now I'm falling asleep at 3 or 4 in the morning and waking up anywhere between 10-3 in the afternoon. It's not for lack of trying. I can't seem to make myself sleepy and I can't seem to wake myself up when the alarm goes off. Today (yesterday? Sunday?) I couldn't seem to wake up. Sleep gripped me like a lover. Held me close and tight every time I tried to leave their safe, warm arms. It's not for lack of things to do. I have an entire book bag spilling over with titles I have yet to touch. I have 3 games for my Switch, of which, I've only played 1 so far (Animal Crossing, in case you're wondering). I even have my clothes set out ready for a morning run!

Yet

I can't seem to focus much on anything. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way; I've been reading the articles after all. Every now and then I'll be able to concentrate enough and finally submerge myself into one of my hobbies. I've finished 3 books and I have started 2 more. Yes, I'm the kind of person who will read 2-3 books at the same time. I'm even the kind of person who will be so engrossed in a book that I will finish it in a day! I've managed to do enough that I am finally taking in campers onto my island and recruiting people to live there. I have my museum and the Able sisters have taken residence and of course Nook's Cranny and Isabel are all thriving on my island. 

I have not gone for a run yet, but I do walk about a mile and half nightly.

Yet something has been gnawing at me more than my inactivity. The funny little things that have happened to me and around me lately. The little "coincidences" that life tosses me. The messages that I feel and the things that resonate with me. I'm not sure entirely how I got here. Actually, let me rephrase, I'm not sure where HERE is. All I know is that I'm on a path and it's taking me somewhere not entirely unknown and strange. It's like when you go somewhere at night but when you see it in the morning it almost looks completely different. I walked this path before in darkness and now the sun is shinning. So while a lot of this feels familiar at the same time it definitely feels brand new. Is this how anyone else feels? Baby witches unite!

In the meantime I'll leave you with this. I'm trying to tune into my intuition more. I'm trying to become best friends with my newest tarot deck. One of my issues is trusting what I sense when it comes to my cards and this is the deck I resonate the most with. So I have promised myself that I will pull a card a day and do my best to read it.

Easter Sunday's card for the collective was 10 of wands. Lonliness. Overwhelmed. Burden. The weight of the world is on your shoulders. Feel into the pressure but don't let it crush you. Understand where it comes from and let it help you grow. Help you glow. Diamonds are made under pressure and this pressure is only temporary.

With that, I now leave to see if I can go to sleep. Goodnight friends and stay safe. 

Your friendly neighborhood baby witch,

Behind the Smog